Regressing: Cravings and Concerts

It's Saturday morning and I'm starting to feel back pain. I've noticed these last few days that it's been more difficult for me to walk. I feel out of balance and that might be because I've probably gained upwards of 15 pounds so far. And the baby is kicking up a storm. I am in meetings at work or talking with others and feel shocked all of a sudden and can't concentrate. Several kicks or jabs in a row can do that to you.

I have also started eating beef and chicken again. I've been doing a really bad job at cooking nutritious meals for myself and not that chicken or beef aren't bad for you, but I know I don't do so well at my protein intake right now. The other night I had an amazing urge to eat a McDonald's cheeseburger. Mind you I have boycotted McDonald's pretty well for a few years, and was horrified at the thought of eating there again. So you can imagine how surprised I was. No one knows why cravings happen. Clearly my baby has not had McDonald's to be able to "ask for it". That's a silly old wives tale. But I do think that partly, it's nerves, and the retreat to go back to a simpler time. I know that my life is about to change drastically in a few months and I guess my subconscious is telling me to hold on to as much as I can. In case you're wondering, the cheeseburger was good, but after I ate it I still didn't really see why people are obsessed with meat as much as they are. I was also dealing with the fact that I gave my child some serious chemicals and the sluggish feelign it gave me.

And speaking of going back to my childhood, I also exposed my child to his/her frist concert - New Kids on the Block! I loved them between the ages of 9 and 16 or so. I was going to marry Jordan Knight and every boy I liked looked much like him. So when I heard they were reuniting I knew I had to make it to another concert, pregnant or not. So this past Tuesday was a lot of fun to get together with fellow fans and scream our butts off.

During the concert, once the music began I didn't have to wonder for too long how it would affect the dancer in my belly. S/he started moving and kicking and I almost felt like it was scared. It retreated up towards the top of my abdomen, (yes I felt the change in position) and my belly got very tight for a good half hour or so. I spent most of the concert very aware of it and massaging myself, hoping it would calm down. Eventually it did. The concert was great and we had such fun. And I was glad to see I wasn't one of the only pregnant people there screaming "I love you JORDAN!"